Many Thanks

As I read over my last blog entry, I realized that that spent feeling was actually a bug starting to run through the home. I would say by 8:00 that evening, my stomach was sour and head was heavy. Emma was just crying and miserable, poor thing could not really communicate what was going on with her. I just wanted to get the kids to bed and nothing I did was really facilitating this...I was the procrastinator here and just to tired to do anything about it. I hate this feeling. I finally did get the kids settled oh around 10:30pm with prompting from James....not him actually putting them to bed but telling me I really ought to have the kids down "don't you think" in a huff a say yes and go do my motherly duties. Anyway, I went to bed overwhelmed and exhausted and just feeling yucky at everything. I was so convicted of this when my wonderful hubby left me sleep in the following day as he got up with the children. This rarely happens...maybe 3 times in the past 6 years. I guess I am writing about it because I am still convicted by this. I know that if I would have said James will you put the kids to bed I just don't feel good he would have said sure. Instead I get upset because he does not notice the need at the time and does not offer to help because he does not notice that I need help.

Well I put my day in at Marriott Wednesday and I had an amazing encounter if you will. Here it goes...I started working at this hotel in 1999 and did payroll and human resources. Each week I processed every element of payroll from scheduling to administering the paycheck for hours worked. I worked in this position for 3 years full time and then part time for another 2 years to finally just remaining on payroll and going in on an as needed basis. Well today was that as needed basis, as I was asked to go through old payroll records and purge any unnecessary documents. After reading the policy, I have my mission before me...basically, I can discard anything prior to 2004 in most instances. As I am claiming boxes to destroy and ultimately shred, I realized wow this was all my work. Bundle after bundle and paper after paper I was shredding all the work I once did. It was very humbling to know that there is no record of anything I ever did there. The Lord brought this to mind as I was standing at the shredder...because I have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, all of my sins are just as if they too have never existed, they were shredded at the cross. Truly, we are here for one purpose and that is to magnify the Lord because in the end this will remain and no one can take my relationship with Christ away. There will most definitely be a record of that!

Happy Thanksgiving...

oh yes just a few of things I am happy for this season...
That I live in a country that I can freely worship Jesus Christ.
That I can pray in public places.
That I have a husband who loves me.
That I have been blessed with 3 children.
That I have a home.
That I can stay at home with my children as my husband provides for us.
That I can home-school.
That I have family...even if they are crazy
That I have friends

Prayerfully you take the time to realize what you have to be thankful for.

God Bless you!